[5] Long.Long Weekend!

This weekend has been pretty awesome so far. First we had an awesome snow day yesterday, where it snowed like a blizzard for hours. Then Kevin picked me up and he, Matteo, Emily and I all went to Jess's house. Kevin's a hilarious driver. In the snow. It was kind of sketchy, but hilarious all at the same time. We did (part of) a jigsaw puzzle, listened to music, played Wii, made food. And all hung out. Justine and Abbs joined us after a bit. Then we split up, and the constant four of us drove to Justine's house to watch LOTR: The Two Towers. And we got half way through, it kept skipping, drove to Jess's house, played a few games, went back to Justine's house, finished the movie. Bahaha. We kept going in circles over and over in the car, because Kevin thought it would be funny. We were all so dizzy. It was hilarious.


You know what's awesome? Half-cuddling. Half cuddling is always great. And sleeping. Sleeping is great too.

Got home at 12:40 last night. Went to bed an hour later. And didn't have school today. (Pro-D).

I went to Gaily's house and we baked cookies! We were trying to spell our names, but. it didn't really work that well. Ah well. It was fun for the few hours it.. happened...?

[4] #$(*&$%&#$(

I'm so annoyed right now.

I got back from history like an hour and a half ago, and I'm still pissed. Our history (music) teacher was being quite bitchy today, and it's so stupid. First she got mad cause we were talking about the new Harry Potter movie at the beginning of class. Then got even more pissy because I put some music we're supposed to listen to into iTunes so I wouldn't have to pull out the CD every time I wanted to listen to it. And just everything added up till she went boom. But the thing is, she's the type of person who will do the quiet angry, not the loud angry. I like the loud angry better. Quiet angry is scary and it makes you feel horrible and guilty. I don't like quiet angry. Anyway. I'm still so frustrated that I can't even really focus on anything. GAH. So I'm planning on heading to bed early and getting a few extra hours of sleep.

[3] Uhm.

Today was the perfect example of my life lately. It has it's large ups, and it's even larger downs.

I had a Spanish test first block, which I didn't study for, but went alright (or so I thought). But here's where it went all wrong: Second block. Choir. See, normally, I intern for choir. BUT, our fearless leader/teacher wasn't here today. But he told one student to work on this massively difficult song. So we split up into girls and guys, with me being stuck with the guys plunking out their notes. One guy basically walked out. Another guy started eating and texting. I'm getting slowly more and more frustrated, when one of the girls comes out and is like, "We're not really getting anywhere. It's hard." So I go in and help them. We come out 10 minutes before class ends, because we're all frustrated, and we're not quite getting anywhere.

What else am I missing. Oh yeah. Our teacher didn't get us a freaking substitute. So I'm trying to lead the class, who's all older than me by at LEAST a year, and trying to get things done, while others are goofing off, not paying attention, trying to lead on their own, etc. etc. And it just got so super frustrating. It led on through lunch and into third block. But I think it slowly got better from there. My bringing slippers to school helped.


Then I went to History class and it was. Good. So, down, then up! Sometimes it's more extreme though. Like. Much more extreme. But it's okay. Because for now, life's good. =)

[2] Life unfulfilled

Lately, I've felt like my life is so pointless. I mean, I'm in grade 12 and all, so I'm graduating, but I feel like there has to be so much more to life than just this. Nothing really makes sense anymore. Sure, I have goals to work towards, but it sure feels like they're useless. Okay, so I have to graduate. And I have audition for schools for music, and get my ARCT, but those goals seem... kind of stupid. It's like I'm just drifting along life, with nothing happening.

It also feels like I'm drifting away from everything. From friends (especially friends), family, church, etc. I know God's there to help me along, but life's unfulfilled.

I want this grade 12 year to be over, and for me to be in university already. Then, go and study abroad in Europe, to get away from everything. I want a new life, new friends, and new opportunities. But for now, I'm stuck here in my small life, with an unfulfilled life.

What do I do?

[1] Blogging?!?!?!

I'm making a blog. Whaaat? I guess for now, it's more for me than anyone else. I need a place to put my thoughts, besides my journal which takes forever to write, and honestly, some of these things I'd rather not share with people. I need a place to just spill everything out, and let's pray that no one finds this. For now, I know for a fact that no one knows this blog exists. And I'm hoping it stays that way for a while? We'll see.

I've been thinking about making a blog for a while now, but I never really got around to doing it. But it's a Friday night, and I'm bored out of my mind, so I thought "might as well. It's not like I have anything else better to do." So. Here it begins.