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"It's the worse feeling in the world to love and hate someone at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change, when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go, and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away. It's hard to think back to how things used to be, and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it."
--The wise words of someone on Tumblr.

One of these things recently entered my life. That would be the CD. The necklace was once lost, but has now been found, in the place where a few things in my room go to die. Or happen to fall.

When Friday comes around, I'm excited for the weekend, but not nearly excited as most people are. Many of my friends get to sleep in, and spend their weekends killing zombies or going out with friends. Mine? Just as busy as my weekdays. Saturday I have piano bright and early, all the way until 2 or 4, depending what I'm doing, either way, it'll involve piano. I'm not complaining, I really like doing piano, but I kind of hate how much time it consumes. Many of my piano playing friends may agree with me. Sundays... well church consumes most of the day until 3ish. And then I go home, practice piano and do homework. Oh crap. I have Act V of King Lear to read.

My Saturday was piano filled till 4, and since then I've been reviewing Math 12, which I totally don't remember, because I'm retaking the provincial on Wednesday.

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Life seems to be speeding by, like it's moving super fast. But then in the moment, it seems slow. The year is going by very quickly, and I know that exams will be over and I'm graduating from high school before I know it. But then, I sit and class and think, when will this class be over? I don't know. One of the weird, random things I notice in life that really don't make any sense to anyone but me.